outburst!!!!!!!!!

today its really not my F***ing day la...

first at work its just like crap. i din have mood to start off and then the first call itself its an escalation call. its such a bad note to start work with. in addition to it, no one seem to care bout helping in work except some of them la but when i need help they're not free all the time. then frankly i feel like crap with some of my colleagues. used to be close and happy working together. and because of the ranking and other reasons that i am unsure of, we became enemy or at least not friends. i really hate it when ppl take it like i wanna beat them for the sake of winning. then some of them will pretend to lose just to make me feel better. pls u're not doing me a favor. and u think u're a better person doing so, pls forget it. to me u're an idiot. only idiots will not make a full advantage of wat is infront of him/her. i just wanna let go of everything today. i felt so like shit keeping it in me and pretend to like every single person in the world. its not that i wanna create trouble but pls get some brains. sometimes jokes oso some ppl wanna be so serious about. like stupid bitches only.

then come home and hope for it to stop. but that's not the case. i had to quarrel with Y.K.W. why is it so hard to communicate lately. it is me or is it everyone else? i feel as though those who understood me dont know who am i anymore. and because of that i don even think i know myself anymore. its like tmr is result day and the thing you at least could do is just go through it with me instead of being a pain in my ass right. y is it so hard to understand me. i am not really good in english but i don think i am that bad till ppl could not understand me in a simple conversation. i really hate it when ppl don understand me and keep repeating the same idiotic things. sometimes, its not that i want to get angry its just that if i don yell or scold ppl wouldn't take me seriously. its CRAP!!!!!!!!!