missing YOU...

It has been months that i have not seen your face. not heard from your voice.
i always wonder wat is going on with your life.. who would have thought that i will be this way...
i guess i really really love you...

everytime when you post your status in chinese, i always wonder what it means. is it good? or is it bad? but i always didnt get the answer. all i can do is to pray for you so that everything turns out good for you.

you are not my past neither my future... you are always my present.. although i am not crying anymore but you are the only person that i would think of when i am not working... all i want is to see you happy.. it hurts me if you are going out with others but if it makes you happy i wouldnt mind. i really want to be your friend but maybe not now... maybe in the future when you already found your prince charming.. i know i am not good enough for you.. sometimes i regret for not studying.. if i am studying at least you would understand what i am going through.. and i would also understand wat you are going through.., but too bad... i am not that rich to just study without working.. there is alot of things that are unfortunate for me...

now my mum is having the same thing as me.. she has 2 growth in her tummy as well... i wanted to tell you about it... i was really sad and didnt know who to tell it too.. but all i can do is just to cry because of what i have not done..

i duno why i post this here... maybe i am still hoping for you to read my blog.. i will wait for you till i cant stand it anymore.. now i can still love you in my heart so i will wait...

happy.....?

"so wat if it hurts me, so wat if i break down...."

thats wat i hold now in my life... so wat if all the bad things happen? we will still have to live on.. so don hang on to the emotions too long...

recently celebrated my bday.... first bday without YKW... i was really happy by the way to have received some wishes from those who i really thought wouldn't wish me...

like wat ppl say... don expect too much and u will be happy...

I miss U so much... and the love i have for U just keep growing even though i don see and feel U anymore.. but somehow i will still think of U from time to time.. and yea missing U...

wat can i do?? i always ask myself that... but the answer nvr come...

i am willing to wait.... i guess...