woo hoo...!!!

This weekend i watched 3 movies, went out for dinner with Y.K.W. and i had so much of laughter. The DVDs i watched are Wall-e, Kung FU Panda, and Love Guru. Among these three, i liked Kung fu panda the most. I don't get love guru, maybe its just me. And Wall-e is a little bit boring and i find it very slow paced. Overall, i was pleased that finally i got to watch all these movies.

We had dinner at "The BIg 3". a place where they serve 'satay celup'. Its a kind of steamboat where the soup is replaced by peanut sauce. The peanut sauce was ok but we had enough of the food sooner then we thought we would. I won't recommend this place to anyone because i personally felt that it wasn't good enough for me to spread around.

Today was suppose to go for choir practice but it was canceled. So some of us decided to go for a drink at any place nearby. those who turned up are Ivan, Chris, Lindley, Jane and i. We had so much fun laughing and telling silly tales. We even learnt French from Chris. Not exactly the proper conversation but we did learn something from him. Its just so funny to hear Ivan and myself speak French.

I think this holiday is going to be a very boring one. Judging from the start of it, i cant see any chance of me having an interesting week. Even so, i am still looking forward to changes that will make me take those words back. For now, that's all... bye...

Memories....

finally i got to play volleyball with my juniors again. Not forgetting Marcus. We had so much fun because it has been a long time since we have played together. Due to my aging body, i was dead tired after the game. I couldn't believe myself that i was so tired. Usually, i can play for hours and still feel fresh. I felt so young just now when i was with my juniors. All that jokes, laughter and teasing. really missed the moments that we use to have. Unfortunately, only a few of them could make it today. So it wasn't a 'full' gathering but no doubt still fun. I think i will play volleyball with them as often as possible with them but i also have to study. SIGH.....

stupid IDiots!!!!!!!!!!

I don't really know how are people so...how should i label them..? Self-centred or inconsiderate of others feelings. I don't get it. Why is it so hard that, for once, you take the first step or even just tolerate? I always have to care of what you would feel and i always have to go out of class to talk to you. Is it so hard for you to just take a few steps to come and talk to me. If you have something to tell me then walk to me and tell don't ask me to go to you like as if i am your slave. It's not i who have anything to say. Another thing, can you people just grow up. Just accept the fact that no matter how close you are to your friends, there's just a day that they will not have the mood to care. but that doesn't mean that they will not care anymore or they don't want to be friends no more. I have my own life too. I don't have the time to go and 'play' your type of games all the time. You want to act and find for sympathy and attention from others go ahead but i don't need that. JUst count me out on that. And if you all don't change i doubt that our friendship will last as long as we wanted it to. So long..bye.

Bloated!!!

I am so full with all kinds of food today. Especially food from the Ramadhan Bazaar. From kebab to all kinds of munchies (all the 'kuih'). Actually i wanted to save the food that i bought for supper but my dad forced me to finish it before 8pm. So i stuffed myself with all the food and i feel so sick. I felt like i was going to throw up anytime. I tried to burp all the air to prevent myself from vomiting. You can just imagine how many times i have burped. Ok, cut the crap. Just wanted to tell that i am bloated and i had too much food in me today.

In school, everything goes on like usual. Ming Liong didn't come so most of us started to talk about him being a suck-up and also a back-stabber. Seriously he is such a back-stabber. I don't mind if you don't like someone and talked about that person. But in his case, he will just pretend to like you then once you leave and the story begins. I don't really care if he were to tlak bad about me because i talked bad about him too. The thing is, he pretended to be friendly to my classmates and then use them. I just feel pissed in behalf of them. They might not feel that its a big deal but i do.

Besides talking about that piece of ****, Sam and i went crazy in class and started to sing non-stop. Actually it started with Sam and Pei Yin. They sang about Danica' outing to pyramid. It was hillarious. The favourite song in our class now is "Ayat-ayat Cinta" by Rossa, at least for some of us. Music really is the universal language. It brought Sam and Sharmiza closer. They started to sing that song together and all that. Who would have thought that Sam would sing a malay song. This is my first time seeing her interested in malay songs.

STPM is in a few more weeks and yet we are so carefree. Teachers in school are even more stressed up than all of us. They are planning workshops and extra lesson to help us but we're just too tired of studying really. I personally think that they should just give us a break. I am so stressed when they pushed me like that. Why must i study for exams? how nice if i can just take the exams and score without putting any effort in studying. NAH, who am i kidding.

Trust?

Some may think that the base to a relationship is trust and for some trust is just an element in a relationship. I personally feel that trust is really important to prolong one's friendship/relationship. Without it, there's no point having a relationship anymore. Recently, there are series of events that really tested my friendship with my friends that i thought were really close to me.

To me, the connection is no more there like how it was. Now we barely even talk and whenever we do talk it will end up in some kind of negative feelings in us, anger or boredom. We don't even have the common interest anymore and could care less about each other. I am sure it's not only me who felt all that but what can i do. The trust isn't there anymore. I sure hope that my friends live well in their lives but i think they have to do it without me in their lives. At least not 100%.

p.s. Qian we will miss you here. Have a safe trip there. hope to see you soon, there or here.

back at us!!!

Today, i went to school like normal. but there's something unusual in class. Only 4 of us came. The 4 that skipped school the day b4. So the whole day we didn't have any studies and we spent all our time in the SAL room playing silly games like "sahiba" and " mind-challenge". We were practically bored to the max today.

Then i was wondering how am i going to go home since Sam isn't there. So i told Kwan that i will be following her back home. Apparently, Sam called MR. KAng to tell me that she is fetching me. If i wasn't wrong, i heard him saying that i need to call Sam if i don have transport home. Or maybe something else that meant the same as what i have said. Maybe there's just misunderstandings between us because we were to busy with our things at hand, me and my games he and his loitering (haha).

Anyways, in the end Sam came and picked me up and we went to a restaurant called "Bawang Merah". It is located all the way in SS 12 near SJMC. The food was fine but there are very limited choices of dishes there. Anyhow i had fun having lunch with Sam and Pei Yin.

Came back home, wanted to sleep straight away but i can't. I don't have any idea of the reasons that are causing me to stay awake even though i am dead tired. Maybe it's the weather condition which is too hot or something. I don't really know. Besides that, everything was fine. I finally got back on track with practice (choir) and learnt half of the latest song that we are scheduled to sing. That's all today...tc.

Again...hehe

I skip school again today to have a badminton game with my friends. Actually we can go after school but too bad we chose not to follow school rules and just skip school haha. I woke up at 6.30 like usual and pretended that i will be going to school because i didn't tell my dad that i am not going to school. So i got the time to explore TAIPAN without the traffic. I had my breakfast at McD and i felt it was great. I actually planned to eat at Leo's CAfe but it is so freaking expensive and i have worked there before so i know how cheap is the cost. Therefore, i decided not to have my breakfast there.

Badminton was great. It proved to me that i need more exercises because i was so tired right after that. My stamina is clearly lower than average. But how am i suppose to get it back when i don't even have the time to have a brief walk or jog. sigh.... Anyways it was fun playing badminton with Eugene,Ryan, and Edre.

Then we head on for lunch in Old Town Kopitiam. Nothing really special happen there except the food that Eugene ordered is such a small portion. All of us was shocked when the food came to our table. That's just a lesson to all of us..not to order that anymore.

When i reached home, i thought that i can have a rest. But no... I had to call the supplier in behalf of my brother and negotiate prices of some tools. Everything went well but after that i just can't shut my eyes. I am dead tired but i can't seem to sleep, until now. Hopefully i can wake up tomorrow for school. That's all that happen today...

food!!!

these are the special food i had for this week...check it out!

this is some swedish food prepared by Sam

mooncake...courtesy of Cindy and family

Didn't have much things to tell about the food, just thanks to those who gave and prepared them. Bye, tc.

take 2....

i am so tired right now but i am still gonna blog about my day. My day is basically being divided into 2, driving talk and practical and also revising for macroeconomics.

I wasted half of the day being all the way in PJ for the driving thingy that i have to go through. It wasn't as bad as what people have said. In fact, it is quite nice. maybe its just my luck to get such fun instructor. My class only consist of 9 students in the class. There was one thing that annoyed me though. there was this boy in the class, he likes to ask question that really should not be ask. He is worst than my classmate, Esther. And he is so not well mannered. Just because there are lots of empty chairs it doesn't mean that he got to move them around and lay down along them during the lecture right. Besides that everything is fun. I got to drive today. At first i was a little scared, i hope its normal. And then i got the hang of it but still a little panicky when it comes to braking. I felt that the brakes of the car that i drove is really sensitive. i only needed to step abit and the whole car will stop immediately. I don't like that feeling, jerking in the car. i did the slop more than i could remember today. Hopefully i can do as well as i did today during the JPJ test. Knowing me, i doubt so. I will just panic and just lose it. hehe...

Came back home arounf 4 pm. And i was freaking exhausted. I tried to take a nap but i cant. Then i had to get dinner with my dad and then i headed straight to shower. Right after that losked myself in my room and TRIED studying. i did cover everything but i doubt i can remember them. I just hope that i can remember all the formulas tomorrow for the test. I am so stress because my body is very very fatique and i cant seem to remember what i have studied. So i am a bit frustrated with that. Just can't wait for my trials to be over. Then after my trials i have 1 very important thing to do. I hope i will make the right decision and i hope i do everything right... tata...tc

wow...! so boring....

i just came back from the field. I went there with cindy, stan, and hong juin. The rest of them are the juniors froms my old school. It is the most boring lantern/mooncake/mid-autumn(wateva u wanna call it) festival ever. I mean not the people but its just boring. We (cindy,hong juin and i) lit up all the candles we could get our hands on and just fool around. Then after that, after all the candles are "bonded' with the pavement, we just sat there and look at each other. that's how boring it is. But then we had some games with the juniors its fun compared to staring. So that it...thats my wateva festival for this year. I feel bored even when i am blogging about it. Haih...going to slp soon...tomorrow got kursus have to wake up early...

THe dEMons ArE BAcK!!!

just when i thought that my life couldn't get any worse, it did. My dad is being his old self again. My physical health is getting worse. My heart pain is back and i had several migraine attacks. I am super exhausted, mentally,physically and emotionally. people always say that if you don't want to be hurt, don't give any chances for anyone to hurt you anymore. So don't get involved in anything at all that might jeopardize your feelings. But me being the ignorant me, ignored that and get right back into relationship and involving myself into potential heart-breaker.For now, there is nothing i wish for but one thing. I just want my health back to normal. I didn't have these problems for 1 month plus now. BUt its back....

Shattered....=(

today, my day started with a very bad 'note'. i don't even have the right mood to sit for my exam. I can't seem to comprehend all that has happened.

It all started yesterday after i read Sam's blog. She posted something that really upsets me. I was just trying to help and be a friend by telling her the truth. Who knows that she will misunderstand my point and just take it the wrong way. After reading her blog, i posted a comment about that post. I was very angry and disappointed with her words. Even though she didn't post it with my name, i know she meant me. From now on i will just keep the thoughts to myself. There's no point to tell your friends the truth if it hurts them so badly. Why do something that will get yourself hated.

Then i went to Y.K.W.'s house as i already promised earlier in the afternoon. Obviously i can't hide my feelings about the Sam incident. With my sour face i told everything that upsets me. Then we were fine until I started comparing my self to Y.K.W's friends (story was cut short..lazy to tell). After that we started being angry and i left angrily. It may seem that its my fault being an obnoxious person creating speculations about him. It may also look like as if we quarreled because of this other person in his life BUt truthfully i was very very jealous of Y.K.W's friends. They practically spend almost half a day with each other and only spend time with me afew hours in a week. I also contributes to that lack of meetings because i am bound by my house-rules and i am practically busy studying for my trials. Then i feel so left out from Y.K.W's life. Hello i am the BF here not the other friends. But frankly i don't feel that way. I feel like a second-hand-car, where you have to settle with it because you have no enough money to buy a brand new car. Just because there isn't any other plans then i will be called to accompany Y.K.W. Actually i feel this way towards my friends too. When they have no other friends to talk to or hang out, then they will call me or invite me to hang with them.

They(my other friends and Y.K.W) always say that they understand me. what they understand about me, that i am not sure. I really cant stand it. Then this morning the teachers were giving warnings to the whole school about leaving school early after exams. Then, some asshole from other class started blaming it on me. They started saying" ah..all your fault la" or " see they're talking bout you". That got me really angry and i can't even concentrate on the task at hand which is my trials. Everyone could see that i am very pissed at something. Being the usual Raymondo, the clown mask will be on from time to time. I just feel really down today. My usual daily nap also disrupted because of these incidents. Maybe i am destined to be a loner and just be with myself in my own world since everything i do is wrong.

business...why???

Sometimes i wonder why did i take business as a field to study. I really don't understand business studies. For almost 2 years now and yet i can't seem to have business knowledge in my brain. today's paper really got the best of me. I only manage to answer 3 question and i left out 1 question. I really have no clue on some of the questions...so what i can do is just to crap it out using my common sense. Which apparently didn't help much. Tomorrow i am going to sit for the paper 2 of business. hopefully i will do much better than today. sigh....

Am i right or wrong???

Today i sat for the microeconomics paper. It wasn't that tough but there are time that i am clueless and just count on luck to get the answer. Overall, i think i did okay. But there is 1 major confusion that happened. My GRAPH!!! It looks so obscene and i felt that i have not seen such graph in my life of studying economics. I really don't know what to do at that time. Should i redo or should i just hand it in and see if it is right? I did what i do best at difficult time, just count on luck. So this explains my title. SO am i right or wrong? I can only find out when the results are out...haih

Tomorrow i am having the worst paper that i have to sit for. At least for me it is. Business paper 1. I don't know why i just can't get business studies. For 2 years now i have been studying business and yet i can't seem to grasp on to it. I tried studying for 3 hours plus just now, but i just can't get it into my thick skull. Now i can only hope for the best and pass. This is all. Don't hope for any dramatic post for the trials 'season'. i will only post about how are my papers and my study stress. I don't blame you all for not wanting to read these posts but i just want it to be out of my system..So long...take care...

back on track....

despite all the dramas yesterday, today is rather calm and normal. Had history paper today and it wasn't as hard as we would have predict. Considering that i didn't study and yet i manage to write something as my answer. Hopefully the results are as pleasing.

So today i handed the letter of apology to Pn Ung and this is what she said "i can't guarantee that this letter will help. even so, the chances are very slim". Actually we don't really care anymore since this morning and we just want to hand in the letter. After handing in the letter, we headed back to class and talk nonsense. None of us wanted to study for tomorrow's paper. All we could think of is just to relax.

On the way home, i realize that something is wrong with danica. I asked her and yet she refuses to tell. All that she said is that she's ok. but its so not her. Usually she will have a lot of stories to tell in the car and we will make a whole lot of noise in the car. what i can do now is just hope everything is fine with her.

besides that, nothing much happen. Just that late in the evening Sam came over to my house and gave a mooncake to me!!! Thanks Sam!! That's all. tomorrow i will be sitting for microeconomics and i hope to do well for that. So wish me luck!!! take care...

so much drama!!!!!!!!

today's paper wasn't that difficult. In fact it is ok compared to the past paper. After we finished, Sam, PY, Danica and i decided to skip school since there isn't anything to do in school. So Sam and i went off first then followed by Danica and PY. But they got caught by the guard when there are about to step out from the school compoun. Then they are needed to write down their names and class in the record book. At first we didn't think it will make any diffirence writing in the book or not. So we just move on with our plans (i can't write my plans here incase teachers or back-stabbers read my blog and tell the teachers)

Then later, in the afternoon, i got a phone call from Sharmiza. At first i thought it was some strangers trying to prank me so i passed the phone to Danica. Then Sharmiza told every single detail of what had happen to Danica and then we could just stand there in silence. All of us were dead shocked!! We have never been in that situation before. The main thing about the phone call is that we are all going to be penalized of our exams and be given a big '0' for the PA paper. If we pail that paper which means there's no point we take the other paper because it will be failed also.

So we headed on home right after that. While in the car, we all tried to think of ways to get us out of that mess. So the first thing that came to my mind is to call Pn Ung and try to sweet talk her. So we go on with that idea and called her. She didn't sound angry or anything and she even acted that she don't know what is going on. I was wondering if she really knows or is it just a rumour that my friends heard. So i try my best not to sound as if i already know that she caught us going out. And so i pretended to ask her what is the reason that she wanted to see us just now. So then after taht she told me that she did not see us in class and she can't find us anywhere in the school so she had to file a report. And she ask us to write a letter of apology each and hope that the school will just waive this case and leave us with a warning. But she said that she can't promise us that the school will do that. Sigh...

Thats all that happen today (enough to turn my head around). I don't even have mood to study right now. I am watching US OPEN right now..the women single's final between Serena Williams and Jelena Jankovic.. Just wish me luck with the school tomorrow. Sigh...

so bored!!!!!!!!!!

haih... I am supposed to study this weekend but i just can't find the mood or will to study. I feel so damn guilty that i am wasting my time just like that. The only thing that i've done this weekend is register myself in a driving school. Nothing much is happening to my life now. Its just a very dull weekend. It is always like that when it comes to examination week. Just hope that i can loosen up a little bit and just relax. and i mean really relax, not just relax infront of my friends. Anyways, wish me luck for my trials. Bye.

Why is it so hard to tell!?!?!?!

It really annoys me when someone come to me for help ( counseling ) and refuse to tell me the whole story/event/incident. If you're so reluctant to tell then don't ask me for help because i can't help if i don't even know what is going on. Especially after asking so many times and yet you still refuse to tell, then just keep your problems to yourself man. I really don't have the patience to deal with your nonsense.

OK now, back to trials. Had my first paper today. It wasn't as difficult as i thought it would be but it wasn't that easy too. Some of the question really doesn't make sense to me at all. So i don't put too much hope on getting an 'A' for that paper. By the way its Pengajian Am which is General Paper in English. It is just a very bad start for my trials. Hopefully it will get better, at least for me. So that's all that happen today basically. Nowadays, i feel really tired and sleepy all the time. Maybe it's stress or maybe it's just lack of sleep. I don't really know but it's not a big deal. Will update further about the trials and my life soon. Bye tc...

arrghhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Trials are starting tomorrow... Not really fond of it but it also indicates how close it is for us to finish our final year and leave the stupid school. The bad thing is we have to study like mad and hope that we don't go crazy because of all the stress. I will still try my best to update my blog daily..Obviously it will be about my exam papers. So have to go now. To get some sleep...pray hard for me if you want...haha...bye take care....

moment of truth.....

This is the current hit game show in my house. It is a game show where they ask questions that are not related to history, current affairs nor it is related to international conflicts. Instead, they ask personal questions and the goal to win this game show is just merely telling the truth. But everyone knows how hard it is to tell the truth as the truth hurts. To make it worst, the family members of the contestants will be there to watch every single minute of it. It is a cool game show so i highly recommend it. On Starworld, 10 pm every wednesday!!! Enjoy..tc...bye...

quite pissed...but nothing i can do....

today was the rehearsal day for an event, some cert awarding event, in school. Originally i was suppose to get 3 certs. But now i only getting 2. The 5R club teacher says that someone else deserved the cert more than me. I bet there are some people that tell her that. If not she wouldn't have said that. But i don't have any prove that it really happen so i will just keep quiet. I wish that those who are involved in back-stabbing me and Danica will be "glad" and be "proud" of our certs. Damn pissed at those people!!!!!!!!!!!

yerrr... so scary....!!

I don't know why, but lately there are many strangers added me in msn. I don't know them at all. Then they will just send me a link to a porn website featuring them...at least that's what they say. I don't enjoy it ok. In case you think i liked it. I just find it very weird and a little bit scary. I wonder how they got my email add from. Ish... a lesson... Don't add people that you're not sure of as your friend... TC bye...