Gonna work soon.... Yay!!!!!

Went to an interview on monday. Turned up late at the office because weren't really familiar with PJ. Despite all that, I got a job. I will be working in PJ starting from 12 of JAn. Its a contact center called SalesForce. The environment there is really nice. everyone seem to be happy all the time and friendly too. All i got to do is just sit my butt down for 8 hours and just talk on the phone. Sounds easy but its not. We are estimated to received at least 70 calls in a day. When i heard that i was like... WHAt!!!!! but come to think of it, It's a contact center so its suppose to be like that. Besides, i will be working with my friends and hopefully know more cool and friendly ppl. Thats it about my job, i will add once i start working.

P.s. I wanna thank Ryan Lim for introducing me to this job and i am very blessed.

it's just not right....

since my last post, everything has been turning worse. i have had interviews turned bad.

I went to 1 interview in celebrity fitness for the consultant post. I personally felt that the interview is just a waste of time. She, the manager, kept asking irrelevant questions such as " why is my results for maths is A and yet my add maths i got c?" and she also kept making assumptions like i will be working for a very short term and also the fact that i am an egoistic man. I felt so angry when being interviewed by her. To add to my frustration i had to talk to her, basically repeating the same things, for almost an hour.

It is just so hard to find for a decent job nowadays. I have sent out my resumes and yet i didn't get any call-back from any of the companies. This coming tuesday, we'll be going for an interview in PJ. I do hope that i get the job and hopefully that the pay is good. I feel so tired from all this looking-for-job thing. Sigh......

Some of you may know that my birthday is just around the corner. But i don't really feel that excited about it. Some of my friends have planned a sleepover and just a full day of fun, just a few of us. That's not the problem. The thing is my dad is making a big fuss. to him i should be at home for my birthday and just wait for the family dinner. Why can't i just go out with my friends before that. It's not like i am going to abandon my family. After trying to reason with him so quite awhile then he said ok as long as i am on time for dinner. Then i feel a little better. Another thing that is at the top of my mind is that i have too many groups of friends that don't get along. Which means i have to devide my time to celebrate with all of them. Even though some of them don't mind, but i just feel bad that some of them have to celebrate with me later or even on another day. Sometimes i feel like having a birthweek instead of a birthday..hahah ( how i wish..)

Whatever it is, I do hope that every single plan/party/outing that my friends have planned for me is bless and just go as plan.

P.s. I would like to say thank you to all my friends for all the christmas wishes and blessings.

Christmas Is Here!!!!!!!

yesterday went to 3 interviews and guess what.... i was offered all 3 jobs. But there is a downside to that news. i am not going to accept any of them. Why? because they're paying me too low so i am still on a hunt for jobs=)

Christmas is coming and i dont really feel that it's Christmas. This year my family just don't have the mood to celebrate. we are going to church and all but there isn't any festive mood. Even so, i have received 2 presents already from my dad and my aunt Liz.

Received this from dad... it cost RM6300

received this from aunt..It's cufflings flown from Hong Kong
Dunno how much it cost... too expensive to handle =P

Hopefully the xmas spirit will come tmr... anyways my friends will be having a gathering this weekend. I do want to attend it on time... i can't confirm but just to try my best. To EVERYONE may you and your loved ones have a very merry Christmas and a happy NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

nervous...=(

finally after weeks being jobless, a chance for me to be hired has come. Obviously its just a chance not a confirmed thingy.

Today, i was checking the Classified for any vacancies that are around Subang or anywhere nearby. Then i saw this ad wanting customer service consultant. After thinking for awhile, i just called up to ask about the job. Without any chances of asking what i wanted to ask, i was ask to go for the interview tomorrow. the only thing the lady ask me is my age and my whereabouts.

i called Danica right after i hang up. We were planning to get jobs together. Then i called Ryan Lim and told him about it too =) Danica came over in the evening and discuss with me about the job vacancy. KNowing me, a blurr kid, she didn't get much info out of me. So i guess she is going to call the office again tomorrow morning to ask for the info.

I am actually quite nervous because this is actually the first time i am attending an 'official' interview. Hopefully i do well in it. I sure hope that they will need more than 1 worker... hehe.
Anyways, wish us luck!!!!! =p

my holidays (so far)

i recently returned from Kuching and i felt like as if i have been there for ages. It was fun being here(Subang) again because i miss my friends so much. Even so, i didn't have the chance to meet up with all of them yet. was suppose to search for job but was too busy with other stuff. Hopefully i will complete my CV latest by sunday so i could send it to potential employers.

i just came back from Time Squarre, and i felt as though i came back from china or japan. Its seriously 'lala' to the max. all the stuff there is similar no matter what shop you go in to. i went there to watch the caroling performed by my fellow friends. it was really nice even though not much audiences supported but to me it really was a success. Too bad i don't have any photos. so practically that's my life after STPM so far. hopefully it will change for the better.

happiest day of my life?? not at all!!!!!!!

today is my last day of exam. i was very happy at that moment when i passed up the exam papers and i see smiles everywhere. but actually i wasn't as happy (today) as i thought i am.

was supposed to hang out with my classmates/friends after the exam for the whole day. everything was planned way earlier even before the STPM exam started. But i have to spoil everything. I couldn't make it last minute because of some family matters to attend to. so i told ryan that i can't go. then sam and danica also bail out from that since i can't go then they rather go have lunch somewhere just the 2 of them. actually the plans includes PY but she had other plans since the original outing was canceled. i felt so bad because of me, the whole world can't have fun as it was planned to be.

then earlier today, after the exam, sam dropped me home and i was fine. then when i reach the doorstep of my house, my brother asked me to help him type a letter to hand to a legal firm. from typing letter to delivery and faxing. i thought today i could relax and just chill but who am i kidding. if my life can be that relax then its not RAYMONDO's life. since i started helping my brother, then i thought, might as well just finish it without complains. but my dad had to add 'oil' to the raging anger in me. i was suppose to go to the shoop to fax by myself but my dad had to make such a big fuss and keep nagging. then fine i went with him even though both of us don't even know that place. so it's like the blind leading the blind. finally i found the place and did all that i have to do.

i just thought, why is my life so miserable. i cant even have fun for a day after my exams? why? no one can answer that... all i could do is just to express my feelings in my "faithful" blog. tonight was suppose to go clubbing. hopefully all that was invited to join can make it (including me) i doubt that i will have any mood for it but i will try to have fun and release all my stress tonight. Never really thought that i will have such day after exam. this is the first time that i felt so sucky after exam. not during spm or pmr.... sigh...

P.s. to those who just finished their spm and stpm..have fun and enjoy to da max..!!!

1more paper!!!!!!!!!

today i took my business paper2. quite tough but i sure pray that i can pass this paper. Just cant wait to finish STPM and just have fun. i will be going back to Kuching on the 6th and will come back on the 16th. hopefully i will have fun there and just relax after the exam =) still couldn't believe that i am going to finish STPm already. After this wat would i do? maybe i will find a job and just live on. i felt that this 1 and a half year has been filled with lots of emotional events and has brought some of us closer than we could ever imagine. and i am happy with that... so thanks to all my friends for being so supportive and i love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.s. pls keep in touch bcoz i don wanna lose such great friends...;P

disappointed...=(

finally i am half way from finishing STPM.. yesterday i sat for my business paper. This was 1 of the paper that i was quite worries about besides PA and History2. But it turned out quite fine.

today was the real challenge for me. HIstory 2 and economics in the same day. i thought my knowledge for econs would be enough for me to get at least a B. Instead of struggling for history, i struggled for econs. maybe it was because of the lack of time or even caused of over confidence. I was very very disappointed that i didn't do as well as i could have done better for that paper. anyhow, what's done is done and there is no point for me to keep on being sad or disappointed about it. Just wanna speak(write) it out.

P.s. For those who plan to study in form 6 in the future please think twice or maybe 3 times because it may stress you like ****

glimpse of hope....

just sat for my history paper. To me, this is the easiest STPM can get. All this while i have been doing well for this paper which is history 1. And frankly, i only have confidence in this paper. Even though i have confidence, it doesn't mean that i can get an A. i just hope that the scores of this paper could help me pass my history paper because i am very bad at my second paper (which covers a whole lot of things). Actually i am quite glad that PA was that tough. It made me realize that nothing is free in this world. I have to work hard in order to make it easy. So from now on, i will be concentrating for every single paper that i am going to sit for and pray for the best. All i could do now is just to do my best and just wait...

P.s. Ryan Lim, good luck for your acc paper tomorrow...!

bad start....=(

Today is the first day for me in taking my STPM exam. Today's paper is PA2 and it really sucks. To others it may be easy but to me it was very challenging. Even so, i tried to fill every section with answers. Just trying my luck actually. After the paper, most of us were quite upset and couldn't even talk about it But as for sam and i, we were practically surrendering to faith ( that's all we can do now ). when i came back, being the stupid me, i went and check the book for the pie chart that was supposed to be the answer for the exam question and guess what.. i found the correct answer ( i won't tell because i don't want to spoil the mood of those who did it wrongly as i did) so my mood was certainly change to worst. Then i tried preparing for tomorrow's paper, history, but all i could do is just read and be faithful that i will remember the answers. I will update about my paper tomorrow as for now i cant really say if i am ready or not =(

yesterday my aunt from UK came back here and we met up. It has been so long that we have not meet. we were all happy to see each other and my aunt brought me something from UK:

this bar of choc is good...

this is a necklace...not bad...

My aunt say that's not all but i will have to wait for the cargo to arrive here in Malaysia first. So excited just thinking of presents as if it is Christmas again...haha.


Today, exactly 2 days before i start STPM, i still feel as if i have finished my exams already. I don't even feel the stress to study. Though i felt a little guilty. MY bro and i went to Sunway today and we went to shop but we only bought a few books in the end. Then we got caught in the rain and because of that we only reached home at around 7. I even played PS for 3 hours today...look at me... i really want to study but i just don't have the urge to do so. haih.... anyways...all the best to those taking SPM and STPM... GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

supper....ooo....

just came back from supper. It was a great experience. We (ryan lim, sam, danica and i) went on a unplanned supper 'date'. Cool... We ate at mcd and talked obviously. Sam paid for my meal as a "give" for me passing my driving test. Thanks Sam... Then after we got bored of ,cd so we went to have some "lok-lok" food. Its like steamboat but its a moving steamboat "restaurant". I think that will be the last time we go to that particular lok-lok place because the owner was so rude towards us especially towards sam. So ya thats about it. I had fun even though it was just a short meeting. Maybe because of exam stress or just because we didn't meet each other for a long time... anyways..take care ppl. i would be busy studying after this ( in God's will) =)

Finally...After several upset...

I am finally legal to drive...but i wasn't super happy about it though. Maybe its because i have tried so many times and failed. Plus, the part that i failed is the part that most people don't fail. At least not for twice. Anyway i am still glad that i finally got it over and done. Its funny how i can pass my road test on my first test and yet i failed those "simple" stuff. I guess all this have train me to be more stable mentally. I think...

here are tips from me to pass:
1) Drink a lot of water so that u stay calm
2) Try to keep your test date to yourself so that no added pressure
3) Make sure you remember the steps and just be cautious
4) Pray hard ( if you have faith)
5) Just don't think too much before you go for your test ( just follow the flow)

Thats all i can say. i can't really say much because i failed twice myself. But these 5 steps really helped because these are the things i did today in order for me to pass...haha.

* to all my friends, sorry for not telling you. I just felt that it would help if i didn't tell you all first.HOpe you all understand ;P

i just can't do it!!!!!!!!

I envy some people who have such close relationship with their parents. As for me, its a total opposite. I cant really remember the last time i had a decent conversation with either of them. My mum as some of you might know has left the family. So i don't really see her that much. So i guess the bond is not there anymore. Every time we talk on the phone or meet up, I just have nothing to talk to her about and sometimes i get really frustrated with her questions very quickly.

As for my dad, all loyal readers should know, i don't even have a relationship. We bicker almost everyday. The only times we don't quarrel or get on each others nerves are during meals and when we are asleep. Other than that, its world war. Some of you may think that i should be grateful that i have a dad to talk to or even to see. Because some unfortunate people don't even have parents to shout at. But seriously, i am not trying to exaggerate stories or anything. Its just that me and my dad share such a bizarre relationship that no one would understand. Just today we upset each other just because my brother asked me to help him lead his friends to the house. My dad obviously had to shout and make it so hard to get out from the house. its not that i am going to SERDANG or JOHORE to lead them, its just USJ 12 and its freaking near. And that also he wants to scream and act as if i am going to hell's gate. I really don't know what he wants from me. i tried telling him how i felt about him treating me so. I even tried to be patient and just ignore every negative vibe from him. Nothing works. I am not trying to talk bad about him or anything, just want to vent out my feelings in my own blog. If you ( the readers) think my actions are immoral you can always leave comments in my 'taggy'.

Whenever i go to my friends house, i feel there's something different there. I can feel that they have a different relationship with their parents compared to what i have. Thats why sometimes i would rather go out even though i am running low on revenue but at least i am not destroying my life with all the anger and frustration. Some of my friends even asked me,"how come your always out. And if not you will be sleeping at home??" so here's your answer. I just feel that we are not improving our relationship with what we have done so far and certainly, i can't find any ways to do so. i don't know what else i can do, but to leave house as soon as i can.

Why can't i live alone???

i have always ask myself this question. I know everyone need some company but why do i need it all the time. Why do i rely on another person so much?

I grew up a loner without my siblings and parents. From young i have been raised by my aunt and usually i will just follow her around and have no one to talk to.Since i moved back with my family, i have been sad. Not because i am living a hard life or anything like that but i just felt so left out. My siblings wouldn't bother much about me because we didn't have the sibling bond since young. And as for my parents, they were too busy making money so we could live on. Frankly, if you ask any of my parents about me they wouldn't now much.

Since i started school, friends have been my company. I grew to be quite sociable since i am in primary. Initially that was because i need my own group to survive school life. You know how it is in school where there are the cool gang and also the not-so-cool gang. Until this very moment i am still like that. In school i will have to have some close friends to keep me company. Here's the catch. How long more i can rely on them? Months...years...? I myself do not know that.

i really hate the fact that i have to rely on someone to live on. The truth is i always have some trust issues with people. This is because i have been hurt so many times by my friends. Therefore, it's a little difficult to earn my trust. So far there are some friends that i really trust ( you know who you are) and some whom i don't trust fully yet. Some people said teachers are "parents" in school. I personally think that teacher ( some) only know how to judge and have perceptions about us. I really hate that about them. Teachers often sees me as a happy, care-free kind of person. And so they make some speculation about me without even know my true self. That's the reason why i don't trust teachers(most).

I really want to learn how to live on my own. I easily get frustrated when people don't understand what i am saying or just take me for granted. I know i am a person that is easy to make use of. when you don't have a friend, there's always Raymondo around to accompany you. Sometimes i just want to live alone. In that case i won't be able to hurt anyone and no one can hurt me. Almost everyday now i will quarrel with someone, regardless of family or friends. I don't want that anymore. People often misunderstand and thinks that i hurt them on purpose. But they do not know what they did in the first place that got me really aggitated. I just can't wait to have my own "wings" and live on my own. Of course i will still meet up with friends and family but i just don't want to meet them( those who hurt me) everyday.

MPT 5&6

Finally the night most of us have waited for so long...PROM. We had a blast..even though there are a little flaw but we can foresee that and just ignore it. The whole night was great and very memorable and so much fun. As for the food, it was just fine and the portion was really small. So none of us actually had enough food. even if there are enough food i don't think there's time because we were too busy taking pictures and just chit chatting with our friends. Not forgetting the wonderful performances arranged. I don't really know how else to describe the prom. here are some pictures that we have taken that night, there are more but i don't have it =(

first pic in the ballroom

danica, sam, pn. viani and mua...

sam and i

me, sam and yee sing ( my lou kong...hehe)

usha and i

the group with pn fong...everyone look so happy

we went back quite early but we didn't miss out alot. went back home and was really tired but i still went for a drink with Y.K.W. then came back home and slept like a baby....hehe

history workshop...!!!

here are some of the pics of teams preparing for their presentation...at least some is preparing...hehe.. and as for some...posing...walking around disturbing others and just doing nothing....




here are some of the vids of the presentation...some really funny ( atleast to us la...its an inside joke...) some boring( u can see how boring it is)..some too long (but i cut it short) so just bare with it...sorry i cant upload all the vids as time is too short for me to upload all...(so if ur vid not here don terasa)

overall the workshop was fine..though not many people turned up but its fine..we had our laughs and some bicker...actually thats me and sam...in the beginning but now its fine already..i hope...so now i am off to prepare myself for prom tonight...don wanna screw anything up..atleast i hope not...

26 more days!!!

STPM is so near man....

anyways MPT (prom) is tmr and everyone is just so focused on looking good for it. At first danica and i wanted to just wear the saree and kurta to the MPT but then she decided not too so i will not too. i borrowed a blazer from Azman. it look quite nice but i havent actually put all my outfit together though. i can just imagine after tmr everyone will be so busy studying and all.

i juts cut my hair today. it is quite short now. hopefully it look nice tmr and i don embarass myself..hehe. anyways there's no pic for this post. hopefully there are some from my prom and i will upload it here. for now thats all...

Spoiler!!!!!!!!!!

my day started off just fine. went to driving centre and had 2 full hours of driving. and i had improved since my last lesson but i don't know will it be enough to pass my test which is on monday. when i came home i was just so tired so i tried taking a nap but it didn't happen. i just cant check in to dreamland...sigh...

then later in the afternoon i told my dad about the dinner plan to celebrate sam's bday and he kept asking me why must i go? why am i invited? and all that nonsense questions. come on i am sam's friend that's y i am invited..duh!!!!!!!! then he just ignored me and don't let me go to any outing including sam's bday celebration and the LOUD concert.. such a spoiler. he has never fail to make my life a living hell man. i don't get it why must he treat me like that. i want to go out with my friends and he don't let me. i want to go to my friends house and he don't let me. i might as well don't have any social life at all by all means.. i am very pissed at how he treated me since last year. i am so overwhelmed by it right now that i am speechless.. just can't wait to have my own life!!!!!!!!!!

Happy bday SAMMIX!!!!!!!!!!

Just came back from giving a big surprise to Sam. We expected her to tear a little but she didn't. i guess she was too shocked that we came to her house in the middle of the night. All the ignoring and making her angry has paid off. Hope she is happy with wat we can give her.

She was half way sleeping in her PJs and we woke her up with a surprise. This is the first time i actually surprise someone this way. Sorry no pic because lighting not too good for my phone to snap any pics. Will post some photo about the bday outing on friday(hopefully)