Twins Bday!!!!!!!!

the ppl that went.....

was suppose to blog about this yesterday bcoz the twins' Birthday was yesterday but i had some problems so i cant blog yesterday. At first we wanted to surprise them at Domino's ( where they worked) but due to late arrival, the surprise was given away by hana who waited super long for us to reach.

After that we went to Station 1 to have dinner together. There's this waitress, she was so funny to laugh at. I know i am being mean but yea...thats me. Forget the waitress la..not worth writing about. After dinner we had a cake and we chatted for quite awhile before we played "stack the tower" or some may call it "Jengga".

look at her...trying to stay calm...

After so long playing that game...look at how high it was stacked up....

Then finally...the tower came crashing down. I forgot who was the 'culprit' that made the tower fall....
but it was really fun hanging with friends just doing anything.... even though it's "stack the tower".. hopefully we have more of these times and just enjoy each other... anyways today, school was at it's worst time. it was so boring and i felt like as if it was a full day already by the end of school...it was the most boring day of my school life... tata...

Selamat HAri Raya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanna wish you guys a happy Raya!!! so so sorry if i couldn't make it to the open houses... just too busy lately..anyways..enjoy your lemang, ketupat and rendang.....!!!

This morning, woke up at 6 am just to get ready for my driving lesson. I thought the lesson will last for 2 hours but instead it only lasted for 1. I just went around usj 11 area where there are a lot of speed bumps. It was okay. I enjoyed it but wasn't really into it like i think i am supposed to. After driving, i came straight to bed. Slept for 3 hours and i felt so fresh after that.

In the evening, my bro asked me to pass something to him. We were suppose to meet at Mentari's McD at 4.30. As soon as i have reached i sms-ed him and told him that i have arrived. I ordered some fries and let time just fly by. But the weird thing is i am being watched by people. At first i didn't bother aboout them watching me but then it got weirder. I thought that there might be something wrong with the way i looked or something that triggers them to look at me like that. I went to the gents right away just to check if there are anything wrong. There is nothing weird about me. There was this couple each of them kept looking at me (one at a time). The weirdest thing about that couple is that the guy is the one that can't take his eyes of me. I am sure that the girl will one day regret dating that guy (haha..if u know wat i mean..)

Then after 1 hours my brother came. He was late and yet he still has the guts to scold me. But the thing about me today is that i was so patient. I don't really know why but i didn't snap at anyone today. Right after passing the things to him i went to the field to play with my friends. so that's all that happen today. Quite a nice day today, i loved it.

woo hoo...!!!

This weekend i watched 3 movies, went out for dinner with Y.K.W. and i had so much of laughter. The DVDs i watched are Wall-e, Kung FU Panda, and Love Guru. Among these three, i liked Kung fu panda the most. I don't get love guru, maybe its just me. And Wall-e is a little bit boring and i find it very slow paced. Overall, i was pleased that finally i got to watch all these movies.

We had dinner at "The BIg 3". a place where they serve 'satay celup'. Its a kind of steamboat where the soup is replaced by peanut sauce. The peanut sauce was ok but we had enough of the food sooner then we thought we would. I won't recommend this place to anyone because i personally felt that it wasn't good enough for me to spread around.

Today was suppose to go for choir practice but it was canceled. So some of us decided to go for a drink at any place nearby. those who turned up are Ivan, Chris, Lindley, Jane and i. We had so much fun laughing and telling silly tales. We even learnt French from Chris. Not exactly the proper conversation but we did learn something from him. Its just so funny to hear Ivan and myself speak French.

I think this holiday is going to be a very boring one. Judging from the start of it, i cant see any chance of me having an interesting week. Even so, i am still looking forward to changes that will make me take those words back. For now, that's all... bye...

Memories....

finally i got to play volleyball with my juniors again. Not forgetting Marcus. We had so much fun because it has been a long time since we have played together. Due to my aging body, i was dead tired after the game. I couldn't believe myself that i was so tired. Usually, i can play for hours and still feel fresh. I felt so young just now when i was with my juniors. All that jokes, laughter and teasing. really missed the moments that we use to have. Unfortunately, only a few of them could make it today. So it wasn't a 'full' gathering but no doubt still fun. I think i will play volleyball with them as often as possible with them but i also have to study. SIGH.....

stupid IDiots!!!!!!!!!!

I don't really know how are people so...how should i label them..? Self-centred or inconsiderate of others feelings. I don't get it. Why is it so hard that, for once, you take the first step or even just tolerate? I always have to care of what you would feel and i always have to go out of class to talk to you. Is it so hard for you to just take a few steps to come and talk to me. If you have something to tell me then walk to me and tell don't ask me to go to you like as if i am your slave. It's not i who have anything to say. Another thing, can you people just grow up. Just accept the fact that no matter how close you are to your friends, there's just a day that they will not have the mood to care. but that doesn't mean that they will not care anymore or they don't want to be friends no more. I have my own life too. I don't have the time to go and 'play' your type of games all the time. You want to act and find for sympathy and attention from others go ahead but i don't need that. JUst count me out on that. And if you all don't change i doubt that our friendship will last as long as we wanted it to. So long..bye.

Bloated!!!

I am so full with all kinds of food today. Especially food from the Ramadhan Bazaar. From kebab to all kinds of munchies (all the 'kuih'). Actually i wanted to save the food that i bought for supper but my dad forced me to finish it before 8pm. So i stuffed myself with all the food and i feel so sick. I felt like i was going to throw up anytime. I tried to burp all the air to prevent myself from vomiting. You can just imagine how many times i have burped. Ok, cut the crap. Just wanted to tell that i am bloated and i had too much food in me today.

In school, everything goes on like usual. Ming Liong didn't come so most of us started to talk about him being a suck-up and also a back-stabber. Seriously he is such a back-stabber. I don't mind if you don't like someone and talked about that person. But in his case, he will just pretend to like you then once you leave and the story begins. I don't really care if he were to tlak bad about me because i talked bad about him too. The thing is, he pretended to be friendly to my classmates and then use them. I just feel pissed in behalf of them. They might not feel that its a big deal but i do.

Besides talking about that piece of ****, Sam and i went crazy in class and started to sing non-stop. Actually it started with Sam and Pei Yin. They sang about Danica' outing to pyramid. It was hillarious. The favourite song in our class now is "Ayat-ayat Cinta" by Rossa, at least for some of us. Music really is the universal language. It brought Sam and Sharmiza closer. They started to sing that song together and all that. Who would have thought that Sam would sing a malay song. This is my first time seeing her interested in malay songs.

STPM is in a few more weeks and yet we are so carefree. Teachers in school are even more stressed up than all of us. They are planning workshops and extra lesson to help us but we're just too tired of studying really. I personally think that they should just give us a break. I am so stressed when they pushed me like that. Why must i study for exams? how nice if i can just take the exams and score without putting any effort in studying. NAH, who am i kidding.

Trust?

Some may think that the base to a relationship is trust and for some trust is just an element in a relationship. I personally feel that trust is really important to prolong one's friendship/relationship. Without it, there's no point having a relationship anymore. Recently, there are series of events that really tested my friendship with my friends that i thought were really close to me.

To me, the connection is no more there like how it was. Now we barely even talk and whenever we do talk it will end up in some kind of negative feelings in us, anger or boredom. We don't even have the common interest anymore and could care less about each other. I am sure it's not only me who felt all that but what can i do. The trust isn't there anymore. I sure hope that my friends live well in their lives but i think they have to do it without me in their lives. At least not 100%.

p.s. Qian we will miss you here. Have a safe trip there. hope to see you soon, there or here.

back at us!!!

Today, i went to school like normal. but there's something unusual in class. Only 4 of us came. The 4 that skipped school the day b4. So the whole day we didn't have any studies and we spent all our time in the SAL room playing silly games like "sahiba" and " mind-challenge". We were practically bored to the max today.

Then i was wondering how am i going to go home since Sam isn't there. So i told Kwan that i will be following her back home. Apparently, Sam called MR. KAng to tell me that she is fetching me. If i wasn't wrong, i heard him saying that i need to call Sam if i don have transport home. Or maybe something else that meant the same as what i have said. Maybe there's just misunderstandings between us because we were to busy with our things at hand, me and my games he and his loitering (haha).

Anyways, in the end Sam came and picked me up and we went to a restaurant called "Bawang Merah". It is located all the way in SS 12 near SJMC. The food was fine but there are very limited choices of dishes there. Anyhow i had fun having lunch with Sam and Pei Yin.

Came back home, wanted to sleep straight away but i can't. I don't have any idea of the reasons that are causing me to stay awake even though i am dead tired. Maybe it's the weather condition which is too hot or something. I don't really know. Besides that, everything was fine. I finally got back on track with practice (choir) and learnt half of the latest song that we are scheduled to sing. That's all today...tc.

Again...hehe

I skip school again today to have a badminton game with my friends. Actually we can go after school but too bad we chose not to follow school rules and just skip school haha. I woke up at 6.30 like usual and pretended that i will be going to school because i didn't tell my dad that i am not going to school. So i got the time to explore TAIPAN without the traffic. I had my breakfast at McD and i felt it was great. I actually planned to eat at Leo's CAfe but it is so freaking expensive and i have worked there before so i know how cheap is the cost. Therefore, i decided not to have my breakfast there.

Badminton was great. It proved to me that i need more exercises because i was so tired right after that. My stamina is clearly lower than average. But how am i suppose to get it back when i don't even have the time to have a brief walk or jog. sigh.... Anyways it was fun playing badminton with Eugene,Ryan, and Edre.

Then we head on for lunch in Old Town Kopitiam. Nothing really special happen there except the food that Eugene ordered is such a small portion. All of us was shocked when the food came to our table. That's just a lesson to all of us..not to order that anymore.

When i reached home, i thought that i can have a rest. But no... I had to call the supplier in behalf of my brother and negotiate prices of some tools. Everything went well but after that i just can't shut my eyes. I am dead tired but i can't seem to sleep, until now. Hopefully i can wake up tomorrow for school. That's all that happen today...

food!!!

these are the special food i had for this week...check it out!

this is some swedish food prepared by Sam

mooncake...courtesy of Cindy and family

Didn't have much things to tell about the food, just thanks to those who gave and prepared them. Bye, tc.

take 2....

i am so tired right now but i am still gonna blog about my day. My day is basically being divided into 2, driving talk and practical and also revising for macroeconomics.

I wasted half of the day being all the way in PJ for the driving thingy that i have to go through. It wasn't as bad as what people have said. In fact, it is quite nice. maybe its just my luck to get such fun instructor. My class only consist of 9 students in the class. There was one thing that annoyed me though. there was this boy in the class, he likes to ask question that really should not be ask. He is worst than my classmate, Esther. And he is so not well mannered. Just because there are lots of empty chairs it doesn't mean that he got to move them around and lay down along them during the lecture right. Besides that everything is fun. I got to drive today. At first i was a little scared, i hope its normal. And then i got the hang of it but still a little panicky when it comes to braking. I felt that the brakes of the car that i drove is really sensitive. i only needed to step abit and the whole car will stop immediately. I don't like that feeling, jerking in the car. i did the slop more than i could remember today. Hopefully i can do as well as i did today during the JPJ test. Knowing me, i doubt so. I will just panic and just lose it. hehe...

Came back home arounf 4 pm. And i was freaking exhausted. I tried to take a nap but i cant. Then i had to get dinner with my dad and then i headed straight to shower. Right after that losked myself in my room and TRIED studying. i did cover everything but i doubt i can remember them. I just hope that i can remember all the formulas tomorrow for the test. I am so stress because my body is very very fatique and i cant seem to remember what i have studied. So i am a bit frustrated with that. Just can't wait for my trials to be over. Then after my trials i have 1 very important thing to do. I hope i will make the right decision and i hope i do everything right... tata...tc

wow...! so boring....

i just came back from the field. I went there with cindy, stan, and hong juin. The rest of them are the juniors froms my old school. It is the most boring lantern/mooncake/mid-autumn(wateva u wanna call it) festival ever. I mean not the people but its just boring. We (cindy,hong juin and i) lit up all the candles we could get our hands on and just fool around. Then after that, after all the candles are "bonded' with the pavement, we just sat there and look at each other. that's how boring it is. But then we had some games with the juniors its fun compared to staring. So that it...thats my wateva festival for this year. I feel bored even when i am blogging about it. Haih...going to slp soon...tomorrow got kursus have to wake up early...

THe dEMons ArE BAcK!!!

just when i thought that my life couldn't get any worse, it did. My dad is being his old self again. My physical health is getting worse. My heart pain is back and i had several migraine attacks. I am super exhausted, mentally,physically and emotionally. people always say that if you don't want to be hurt, don't give any chances for anyone to hurt you anymore. So don't get involved in anything at all that might jeopardize your feelings. But me being the ignorant me, ignored that and get right back into relationship and involving myself into potential heart-breaker.For now, there is nothing i wish for but one thing. I just want my health back to normal. I didn't have these problems for 1 month plus now. BUt its back....

Shattered....=(

today, my day started with a very bad 'note'. i don't even have the right mood to sit for my exam. I can't seem to comprehend all that has happened.

It all started yesterday after i read Sam's blog. She posted something that really upsets me. I was just trying to help and be a friend by telling her the truth. Who knows that she will misunderstand my point and just take it the wrong way. After reading her blog, i posted a comment about that post. I was very angry and disappointed with her words. Even though she didn't post it with my name, i know she meant me. From now on i will just keep the thoughts to myself. There's no point to tell your friends the truth if it hurts them so badly. Why do something that will get yourself hated.

Then i went to Y.K.W.'s house as i already promised earlier in the afternoon. Obviously i can't hide my feelings about the Sam incident. With my sour face i told everything that upsets me. Then we were fine until I started comparing my self to Y.K.W's friends (story was cut short..lazy to tell). After that we started being angry and i left angrily. It may seem that its my fault being an obnoxious person creating speculations about him. It may also look like as if we quarreled because of this other person in his life BUt truthfully i was very very jealous of Y.K.W's friends. They practically spend almost half a day with each other and only spend time with me afew hours in a week. I also contributes to that lack of meetings because i am bound by my house-rules and i am practically busy studying for my trials. Then i feel so left out from Y.K.W's life. Hello i am the BF here not the other friends. But frankly i don't feel that way. I feel like a second-hand-car, where you have to settle with it because you have no enough money to buy a brand new car. Just because there isn't any other plans then i will be called to accompany Y.K.W. Actually i feel this way towards my friends too. When they have no other friends to talk to or hang out, then they will call me or invite me to hang with them.

They(my other friends and Y.K.W) always say that they understand me. what they understand about me, that i am not sure. I really cant stand it. Then this morning the teachers were giving warnings to the whole school about leaving school early after exams. Then, some asshole from other class started blaming it on me. They started saying" ah..all your fault la" or " see they're talking bout you". That got me really angry and i can't even concentrate on the task at hand which is my trials. Everyone could see that i am very pissed at something. Being the usual Raymondo, the clown mask will be on from time to time. I just feel really down today. My usual daily nap also disrupted because of these incidents. Maybe i am destined to be a loner and just be with myself in my own world since everything i do is wrong.

business...why???

Sometimes i wonder why did i take business as a field to study. I really don't understand business studies. For almost 2 years now and yet i can't seem to have business knowledge in my brain. today's paper really got the best of me. I only manage to answer 3 question and i left out 1 question. I really have no clue on some of the questions...so what i can do is just to crap it out using my common sense. Which apparently didn't help much. Tomorrow i am going to sit for the paper 2 of business. hopefully i will do much better than today. sigh....

Am i right or wrong???

Today i sat for the microeconomics paper. It wasn't that tough but there are time that i am clueless and just count on luck to get the answer. Overall, i think i did okay. But there is 1 major confusion that happened. My GRAPH!!! It looks so obscene and i felt that i have not seen such graph in my life of studying economics. I really don't know what to do at that time. Should i redo or should i just hand it in and see if it is right? I did what i do best at difficult time, just count on luck. So this explains my title. SO am i right or wrong? I can only find out when the results are out...haih

Tomorrow i am having the worst paper that i have to sit for. At least for me it is. Business paper 1. I don't know why i just can't get business studies. For 2 years now i have been studying business and yet i can't seem to grasp on to it. I tried studying for 3 hours plus just now, but i just can't get it into my thick skull. Now i can only hope for the best and pass. This is all. Don't hope for any dramatic post for the trials 'season'. i will only post about how are my papers and my study stress. I don't blame you all for not wanting to read these posts but i just want it to be out of my system..So long...take care...

back on track....

despite all the dramas yesterday, today is rather calm and normal. Had history paper today and it wasn't as hard as we would have predict. Considering that i didn't study and yet i manage to write something as my answer. Hopefully the results are as pleasing.

So today i handed the letter of apology to Pn Ung and this is what she said "i can't guarantee that this letter will help. even so, the chances are very slim". Actually we don't really care anymore since this morning and we just want to hand in the letter. After handing in the letter, we headed back to class and talk nonsense. None of us wanted to study for tomorrow's paper. All we could think of is just to relax.

On the way home, i realize that something is wrong with danica. I asked her and yet she refuses to tell. All that she said is that she's ok. but its so not her. Usually she will have a lot of stories to tell in the car and we will make a whole lot of noise in the car. what i can do now is just hope everything is fine with her.

besides that, nothing much happen. Just that late in the evening Sam came over to my house and gave a mooncake to me!!! Thanks Sam!! That's all. tomorrow i will be sitting for microeconomics and i hope to do well for that. So wish me luck!!! take care...

so much drama!!!!!!!!

today's paper wasn't that difficult. In fact it is ok compared to the past paper. After we finished, Sam, PY, Danica and i decided to skip school since there isn't anything to do in school. So Sam and i went off first then followed by Danica and PY. But they got caught by the guard when there are about to step out from the school compoun. Then they are needed to write down their names and class in the record book. At first we didn't think it will make any diffirence writing in the book or not. So we just move on with our plans (i can't write my plans here incase teachers or back-stabbers read my blog and tell the teachers)

Then later, in the afternoon, i got a phone call from Sharmiza. At first i thought it was some strangers trying to prank me so i passed the phone to Danica. Then Sharmiza told every single detail of what had happen to Danica and then we could just stand there in silence. All of us were dead shocked!! We have never been in that situation before. The main thing about the phone call is that we are all going to be penalized of our exams and be given a big '0' for the PA paper. If we pail that paper which means there's no point we take the other paper because it will be failed also.

So we headed on home right after that. While in the car, we all tried to think of ways to get us out of that mess. So the first thing that came to my mind is to call Pn Ung and try to sweet talk her. So we go on with that idea and called her. She didn't sound angry or anything and she even acted that she don't know what is going on. I was wondering if she really knows or is it just a rumour that my friends heard. So i try my best not to sound as if i already know that she caught us going out. And so i pretended to ask her what is the reason that she wanted to see us just now. So then after taht she told me that she did not see us in class and she can't find us anywhere in the school so she had to file a report. And she ask us to write a letter of apology each and hope that the school will just waive this case and leave us with a warning. But she said that she can't promise us that the school will do that. Sigh...

Thats all that happen today (enough to turn my head around). I don't even have mood to study right now. I am watching US OPEN right now..the women single's final between Serena Williams and Jelena Jankovic.. Just wish me luck with the school tomorrow. Sigh...

so bored!!!!!!!!!!

haih... I am supposed to study this weekend but i just can't find the mood or will to study. I feel so damn guilty that i am wasting my time just like that. The only thing that i've done this weekend is register myself in a driving school. Nothing much is happening to my life now. Its just a very dull weekend. It is always like that when it comes to examination week. Just hope that i can loosen up a little bit and just relax. and i mean really relax, not just relax infront of my friends. Anyways, wish me luck for my trials. Bye.

Why is it so hard to tell!?!?!?!

It really annoys me when someone come to me for help ( counseling ) and refuse to tell me the whole story/event/incident. If you're so reluctant to tell then don't ask me for help because i can't help if i don't even know what is going on. Especially after asking so many times and yet you still refuse to tell, then just keep your problems to yourself man. I really don't have the patience to deal with your nonsense.

OK now, back to trials. Had my first paper today. It wasn't as difficult as i thought it would be but it wasn't that easy too. Some of the question really doesn't make sense to me at all. So i don't put too much hope on getting an 'A' for that paper. By the way its Pengajian Am which is General Paper in English. It is just a very bad start for my trials. Hopefully it will get better, at least for me. So that's all that happen today basically. Nowadays, i feel really tired and sleepy all the time. Maybe it's stress or maybe it's just lack of sleep. I don't really know but it's not a big deal. Will update further about the trials and my life soon. Bye tc...

arrghhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Trials are starting tomorrow... Not really fond of it but it also indicates how close it is for us to finish our final year and leave the stupid school. The bad thing is we have to study like mad and hope that we don't go crazy because of all the stress. I will still try my best to update my blog daily..Obviously it will be about my exam papers. So have to go now. To get some sleep...pray hard for me if you want...haha...bye take care....

moment of truth.....

This is the current hit game show in my house. It is a game show where they ask questions that are not related to history, current affairs nor it is related to international conflicts. Instead, they ask personal questions and the goal to win this game show is just merely telling the truth. But everyone knows how hard it is to tell the truth as the truth hurts. To make it worst, the family members of the contestants will be there to watch every single minute of it. It is a cool game show so i highly recommend it. On Starworld, 10 pm every wednesday!!! Enjoy..tc...bye...

quite pissed...but nothing i can do....

today was the rehearsal day for an event, some cert awarding event, in school. Originally i was suppose to get 3 certs. But now i only getting 2. The 5R club teacher says that someone else deserved the cert more than me. I bet there are some people that tell her that. If not she wouldn't have said that. But i don't have any prove that it really happen so i will just keep quiet. I wish that those who are involved in back-stabbing me and Danica will be "glad" and be "proud" of our certs. Damn pissed at those people!!!!!!!!!!!

yerrr... so scary....!!

I don't know why, but lately there are many strangers added me in msn. I don't know them at all. Then they will just send me a link to a porn website featuring them...at least that's what they say. I don't enjoy it ok. In case you think i liked it. I just find it very weird and a little bit scary. I wonder how they got my email add from. Ish... a lesson... Don't add people that you're not sure of as your friend... TC bye...

my weekend....

my new flipflops....

basically this weekend is not really fun to blog about. I actually felt upset and i felt a little disappointed with what has happen. So that's why i will not blog about it and just leave it at peace. Hopefully i will never have to go through such situation anymore.

Even though mostly i felt sad, but there are a few good things that happen in the weekend. I went to a gathering with my friends in Kwan and Teng's house. Sadly Janelle could not make it. But no biggy we will just plan for another outing or gathering that she can come to. It is not that we have a lot of things to do there as it is a last minute kinda thing. But we really enjoy each other's company. At least i hope everyone did. I most certainly didn't because of my mood. But i did a good job covering it actually. No one knew i was feeling down except Kwan and Teng. I am not sure whether the rest don't bother or just too afraid to ask. So basically that's my weekend. Quarreled with Y.K.W. and i really feel that i am a burden to everyone and i should not have any feelings.

Sometimes i wonder why there are people who don't want to get too attached to their friends or too involved with things revolving around them. At first i thought they are just anti-social. But now i have another view on that. They're doing so just to protect themselves from getting hurt. How i wish i can do that now. Just ignore as much people as i could and minimize the chances of me getting hurt ( in all sorts of ways)

That's it for my weekend, trials starting on saturday and yet i havent revise my studies. So i will need a lot of luck and prayers on my trials ( hint hint...) so tc..bye.

believed wat i said? YES or NO?

I don't know is it because of the impression i give to people or is it just i am not trustworthy. I really am confused. Most of the time i am giving advise to others. But how do i know my advise is useful to them? Is it by looking at the feedback the gave me? Or maybe i should just trust that they will take my advise? I really feel like crap when i give advises and yet people just don't take it seriously. Maybe is it just my personality, always talking "crap", that make others doubt me. Sometimes i just feel that i am just a person to talk to when there's no one else around. SOMETIMES. And at times i just feel like a counselor that is just needed when there's a problem or a dilemma. Is it so hard to take my advise or even my idea? Even though i am always joking around but whenever someone needs advise or tips or even some idea, i will give all that i can think of seriously. I hope from now on, people will take me seriously when i am serious. And i feel that i am not only a clown but a customer service officer as well. I know my friends also help me when i need them but at least i take whatever they say or do to heart and really appreciate what they've done, i really do. I am not trying to point fingers at people but this is towards all who knows me in general. Sorry if i have offended any of you in any of my post. Tc.

P.s. Good luck and all the best Danica, You can do it!!!

stressed??? What can it do to us??

I would like to talk about Stress before i start talking bout my day. Stress is so common amongst the form six students. Everyone faces their own type of stress. Whether its stress with coping with studies or even about money. To some its just stress about preparation for the future. The funny thing about stress is not what stress are we facing but how it changes someone to someone totally different. From a strong mentally person to a quiet and timid person. And some will become the ones that need help despite the joyous and happy-go-lucky personality. I just want to wish those people with stress just to calm down and try your best to deal with it. Even if you can't manage it, talk to someone and let your feelings out. I myself face a lot of challenges and stress. I would tell myself whatever i have just advised but i have my friends to stand with me and remind me about what i have said. Friends, I will try my best to help you all to cope with your stress like what you have done for me before this.

Today in school, nothing really special happen. In fact, i find school a bit boring nowadays. Izzati brought some steamed brownies from INDONESIA and it tasted so nice. Everyone in class loved it. Too bad i have no picture of it or even the brownies itself to let you ( my readers) taste it. But there is a downside to that box of brownies. It is packed in a box that is shaped like a shoe box (haha). At first we thought it is a pair of shoes and asked her why would she bring a pair of shoes to school. Then we found out is a box of brownies. We laughed our heads off....

Besides that, we are just too bored. Sam brought her guitar so she will be playing and all of us will sing to whatever song that she played. There's a point of boredom that Sam and i decided to do something really childish to do. We had a "fencing" session with marker pens and whiteboard duster. And we went round the class chasing each other. Haha...Maybe it is also the stress of studying now that we had to let loose of the Kid inside us to just loosen up a little bit. So that's my day. Besides that nothing really much happen. I find it really funny when we are in form six and yet we act like some 7-year-old kids....haha. so thats all, tc.

Don't Rush Me....!!!!

I hate it when people just treat me like a servant. Asking to do their chores and asking me to deal with their problems. Like as if i don't have enough on my mind to keep me busy. Even worse scenario is that when i don't do it well or right, i get scolded like as if i am supposed to do it for them. Come on, it was like a favor that i am giving you. If you want it perfect, then do it yourself! Don't rush me to finish it so soon. Don't ask someone to do it and just throw tantrums around when it's screwed up. I just feel it is unfair. Then when i do it wrongly, they make me feel even worse than i have already felt. It's not like i want to right. Maybe lending a helping hand is not always rewarding in the end.

aww.. so sad..=(

There's 2 things that make me sad today. First, the volleyball team above, my favourite, Brazil lost in the olympics today. How sad is that..but i cant do anything bout it. Maybe its just they're luck. They've played well but the USA team is playing exceptionally well. The best match that i've watched. I am at the edge of my seat for every single point man. Just imagine that. NO matter what, they're still my favourite team and THEY'RE STILL THE BEST IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!

The other thing that make me feel sad today is TOMORROW IS A SCHOOLING DAY. I feel so sad that i have to go back to school. I know we should be glad that we have education but school is just so not fun. I just can't wait to finish my schooling days. I know i've said it a lot but that's the truth. Even so, i will miss my schooling days the most. So thats it, have to sleep early for school tomorrow. Bye tc.

Oh Happy Day!!!!!!!

today, finally i got my specs. Only the 2 of us went today because the rest wasn't free to go. So here's a pic of me with my specs and also Sam with hers.

me with new spec and new hair cut...

Sam...happy but dunno bcoz of the specs or...ehmm...

so nice or not??? Not nice don't say it out. Just keep it to yourselves. Anyway i liked it. Here are some pics of the specs. Like advertisement only...hahaha...

both our specs....

mine!!!!!!!!!!

Sam's....

After we took our glasses, we went on just loitering around summit trying to find things to do. Firstly, we went for lunch at the Thai restaurant. After eating we went to Reject shop and guess what we did. We went and try on clothes but didn't but any. The clothes looked nice but the cutting is damn weird but what can you expect from "reject" shop right. I didn't take any pic of Sam and her outfit because she didn't like any of them. And as for me, it only looked nice from the waist up. The pants are totally weird. Some of the shirt also have weird cuttings.

nice top..i Like it but not worth it larrr...

this one..hmm...look like uncle shirt (looks nice in the pic only)

So we left the shop without buying anything and Sam say its ok. That's what the girls usually do(she said). So now i know how come girls shop for hours and only come back with a few bags of things. Oh that's not all we did in Summit. We went to this booth that sells mooncakes and tried all the flavors. They had the weirdest of them all, Curry flavor. It tasted like curry puff but i find it weird that a mooncake tasted like the curry puff. We bought some of it and we also bought some of the mini things that is sold there too. So monday's breakfast is the mooncakes..haha.. That reminds me that school holidays are coming to the end and here comes school. Hate school...haih... sad case... anyways, that's all for now. bye tc.

Went out again...woo hooo!!!!!!!!!

This time its with Nic and Jerry.

In the morning i got a surprise call from Jerry (who didn't call me for months now..). Obviously i was shocked. Then i got to know they're just in front of my house. So the 3 of us went out to have lunch at Ten Tien Fatt restaurant at USJ 8. Not really nice though. So we chat and chat till 1 p.m. then i suggested that we move on home because my dad wants me home early.

Guess what? Nic planned for me to lie to my dad and say that i go to work early and go out with them a little bit longer as we haven't seen each other for quite some time now. So we went to the Summit ( again...) and watch movie. We watched The Mummy. Most of my friends says that it sucks but i find it rather interesting to watch. In fact, its quite awesome to watch. I think those who said that movie sucks do not appreciate those kind of movie. Maybe they are more suitable to watch romantic love stories or even some comedy.

After the movie, we went for dinner at Anggerik. I ended up not going to work...haha. Then when i came home early from " work" my dad asked "why so early?". Then i replied "I came home earlier because i wasn't feeling well". HAHAHAHA. Such a liar right. Tomorrow i will be picking up my new lenses with Sam. Which means...going out again. So fun right... thats it for now. Hopefully will get to post with photos of my new specs ( poser..!haha..). But just keep your eyes on the specs because i am getting a new hair cut tomorrow and i predict it will be an ugly one. Bye tc.

wow....i practically had the best day of the year today. Sam, Bryan, Y.K.W. and I went out to summit. The original plan was to get the new glasses that i have blogged about. Then Sam and Y.K.W. wanted to watch a movie. So we went and see what movie is available and guess what...the movie chosen was " Mirror". It's one of the freakiest movie i have ever watched...the freakiest is still " The Exorcism of Emily Rose".

During the movie, Bryan keep getting up to go to the john and somewhere else. I bet he is freaking out inside of him. So to hide his sissy-ness, he gave all that excuses. Haha..just kidding. Sam is so funny during the movie. Everyone is scared but not as bad as Sam. She covers her eyes and watch from between her fingers. And from time to time she won't even watch and asked Bryan to tell her what has happen. It is so funny looking at them like that.

After the movie, we headed to Focus Point to get the new glasses. I had a hard time finding for the right one because the one that i wanted is no more there. sob sob... so i had to start from square 1. Going through every single one of them until i found one that suits my face. That pair of glasses is also in Sam's waiting list. I felt quite bad making her find a few more pair so that she can choose others. The fact is, there are so many pairs that suits her but for me there's only one. Hopefully she really really like the one that she chose in the end. At least the rest thought it suits me. I felt that it is nice on me but i don't really like the sides. I don't feel comfortable when i put it on. Nevertheless, it looks nice from the front. After choosing the glasses i had to go for the eye test because i wasn't sure of my current power. It took so long for the person to deal with it in the 'room'. Everyone was wondering what was i doing in the room with that dude..haha so funny. So after all that is done, after so long, we went around and sell the cockroach repellent thingy.

That is actually the first time i did direct-selling. Sam and i went in to every restaurant there is in summit and yet none of them want to buy. I didn't have much emotion after that but as for Sam, she is quite disappointed with the results. But we can't be too hard with ourselves on that. It's basically the first time that we are doing it. Gambateh!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and one more thing, my dad is in super good mood today. He let me out and not scold me at all when i return. And better still, he let me out for badminton tomorrow. How cool is that..! I wish he will stay that way for long but i doubt it. So that's it...will blog soon, with pictures of the glasses hopefully. Bye tc.

Unemployed..?!? FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally i have tendered my resignation today. I will be unemployed starting from next friday( my last day). I am a little sad that i am leaving but i have to for the sake of my studies.

Everything is going well today. NO quarreling going on. NO stress. And the plan of getting new glasses goes on as planned. Hopefully nothing disturbs it tomorrow. Me and Y.K.W. are fine again. Of course there are a bit of awkwardness still but we are doing fine. I am very embarrassed to face him actually after causing him so much problem. I am very thankful that he is not giving up on me.

Just can't wait for tomorrow. New glasses!!! hopefully i can find a nice pair that really suits me. If not, i won't get any. So basically that's all for today. Its better to keep it short and sweet. hahahah. bye tc...

love...are there anymore in me??

Lately i realize there are drastic changes in me. I might not be the same friendly person that everyone used to know. I might not even be that special someone that Y.K.W. might have known and love. I really don't know what is happening to me. I cant explain what is going on in my life and i don't know why i can hurt someone i cared for so badly. I don't know how else i can express my apology to those whom i have hurt. I feel so bad that i hurt a lot of people and yet i don't know how i can do such a thing. I really really am lost. I don't know where has the old Raymondo gone to.

Today i tried comforting Y.K.W. after i've done something wrong the night before. I went over to his home and he keep ignoring me. Then we head on to lunch but at that time i was a bit fed-up of him ignoring me so i ended up ignoring him too. Today's lunch was the most silent one that we ever had. I was happy that we finally sit down and lay down our problems so that we can settle it. Unfortunately, that wasn't the result of it. We both ended up even more disappointed and dejected with each other, well mostly he is disappointed in me for doubting him. I really really hope he understand what i am going through and stay strong for me. Even better, help me find "me" back and help me to learn how to love again.

So far the holidays have been sucky. I have plan to go out with Sam to get each of ourselves a pair of new glasses, but i guess that plan has to be abandoned. All my plans to loosen up my tense body during the holidays are being back-fired because of my "understanding" dad. He don't allow me to go out, not anywhere. His always say that there's no point of doing that. "Might as well you sit at home and study or rest" the usual thing that he always say. Come on, i will just be more tense if i am stuck at home all day long for 9 days. I keep standing up to him but no point. He wouldn't listen. He made me look like a small 7-year-old boy in front of my friends. Everything others can do i cant. I am about to lose it...i cant stand it anymore. I wish my life would be better even if it need to be ended, i don't mind. As long as i can break lose of this "jail house".

Yesterday was the first time i ever go to kl myself...on a bike. I went all the way to bangsar area to pick my bro. Actually i was force to go there but its ok. I didn't regret it. At least now i know how to get there myself. All this while i always follow my friends around but i can't seem to remember the way to anywhere except in usj area.

About my trip to bangsar, i went at around 11.30 p.m., that's when my bro called me to pick him up. I was freaking out actually but i had to go because there isn't anyone else to pick him. Therefore, i went on the bike and head on to bangsar. I roughly know which highway to use so i just follow the signboards till i reached bangsar area. Even so i still don't know how to get to the KL Sentral. Usually i go there by train and its so easy compared to going there with a bike. So i had to call my bro and ask for instructions. All that trouble i had to go through just to realize that the station is just meters away from where i was. I feel so useless at that time. come to think of it now, its hilarious. So thats all that happen since i last blogged..so take care. Will post soon bye..

hols...does it make any difference???

today, officially the holidays started but i don't find it very stress free. I just feel so stress living with my dad. I always feel that my every move is being watch and i don feel comfortable at all. Today, again, i stood up to him and blurted all that is in my mind. I can't even go out with my close friends without a curfew. i know i sounded like a spoil brat and my dad is just being a concern dad, but trust me my dad is one in a million. he only let me have like 2 hours with my friends even if my friends just came back from somewhere far or someone that i haven't seen for long. He is just so inconsiderate. I feel like living in a jail. So what if you have a house but be treated like that. Now holidays has started meaning i have to stay at home and face him more than ever. its not that i don't like being at home. It's just that he will just make my life a living hell. He will just find a way to annoy me. Lately i always quarrel with him about simple things but i just can't stand it. Thankfully i have Y.K.W. to be there when i need someone to talk to or when i just need someone to accompany me. i just want to say i love you for being such an understanding friend, even though i may be a little harsh on you at times but you still will listen to my problems. I thank you with all my heart. And to Kok Hong, thank for listening to my problems for over 8 years now. tc...

this morning was my late uncle's burial... i still can't believe it that i have lost my uncle. Despite all that sorrow, we still have to live on and try to be happy again. Lately i feel that i get angry, irritated and annoyed very quickly. Usually i won't feel annoyed or even affected by the insults from others. i may sometimes even insult back with 'benefits'. I don't really know what is going on with me. I feel very fatigue all the time, and even lost myself mentally and emotionally. Maybe it is cause by stress since exams is just around the corner.

Today in school, nothing really special happen. The whole class just reassure of the plan to skip school tomorrow and have a class outing. It has been awhile that we go out as a class. Besides, i think we need a break from all that studying and nagging from teachers. So the plan is on..we are going to skip school to play volleyball and futsal. I can't wait to play with them as this will be the first time i play volleyball and futsal with my classmates. It feel so weird and actually wasted that most of us only got closer towards the end of our schooling era. If only we would have open up to each other earlier then maybe we would be a class with stronger friendship bond.

In school, when i was about to enter the library, Pn Ung( discipline teacher) saw me without a tie from the block across. She immediately shouted at me and ask me to change my uniform to what the normal students are wearing. Actually i am glad to do so. i have always wanted to change to the normal student's uniform once i retire from being a prefect. It was she who didn't allow it at that time. Now look...if only she would have allow it earlier then she wouldn't have to yell at me or even make me hate her even more. So i am going to wear my old uniform starting from when school reopens.

So basically that's my day. Hopefully i am able to feel like myself again very soon. I am so tired of being so short tempered and always feeling tense. Just can't wait for tomorrow, just to enjoy and let lose of all the stress. so long....tc..

another death....:(

just posted a happy post and now my posts become sad again. this morning another person in my life is gone to another stage of life, death. my uncle, Raymond Chin, just passed away this morning and i only got the news at the afternoon after i got back from school. actually we already set our minds that he will leave us 1 day because he is suffering from cancer for quite some time already but we didn't expect it to be this soon.

its just a month ago that he visited us here in kl. we had dinners and luncheons together and even joke till late at night. we always try to keep him happy as we don't know when will he depart. i am overwhelmed by the situation right now because he is 1 of the uncle that actually cared for us here. even though we are not rich like others are. even though we are not as friendly or as close like the others are but he never forget us as his nephews. other uncles will only call us or sms us when there is something major going on like family gathering that all of us have to attend. but Uncle Raymond always cares. everytime we go back to Kuching, he will definitely invite us to his house even if its a short meeting but its the thought of it that counts. so what if you have all the money in the world if you don't even care for your family members.

but now, all that's left are just memories, bitter sweet memories. i am not able to get there for his funeral because of some complication and i really hope that he understands(wherever he is). i don give a damn if the rest feel that i don even care about him and his death because they don even want to care about us at our hard times. i really feel bad that i could not go to his funeral to pay him a last respect but i will pray for him here.

and i hope that his family members, Ruben, Leslie, Bradley, Mei Mei and Remy( the baby) will stay strong together and look out for each other. i really wish i could help them if i can but now i have to settle my own problems first before i can help them. let this be a lesson to us so that we will appreciate those who are around us. no matter how much our siblings annoy us, no matter how much our parents control us, just bare with it. after all we are still a family.

Olympics...!

here it comes again...the most entertaining games ever...The Olympic Games. i love sports, so i am enjoying every second of it. especially the volleyball and swimming(so far).. i have spent all my weekend being a couch potato and watch everything that happen in the Olympics. i know, i know i shud be studying and all...but its just so irresistible. its just me..when it comes to sport, i will just glue my eyes to the screen and not move till the commercials come on then i will go get a drink or something to snack on..if not i won't even move...not even for dinner. cant wait for the track and field to start...that is the moments or events that everyone is waiting for actually...so thats all that happen in my weekend...boring to some but not me...sport is everything to me...besides those with lives( friends and family).. ok now back to the sports...bye tc..

99 days... haih

starting from today, there's only 99 days left for my most major exam up to now, STPM. i am actually looking forward to that day..even so, there are some part of me that wanted these few days to last as long as they could as i am so not prepared yet..but i really cant stand the torture anymore...especially with zaini nagging and screeching her high pitch voice in class...i hate it...i hate it so much... my advice to those who wants to go form 6 in the future...think twice..no make it three times...and if can don go...its a suffering...most of us just want to get over it and just be free..and hope that uni life is better but i doubt so la...i am so sick of school and the system..anyways that all i got to say..have a great day ahead...chaoz...

stress lar....!!!!

this is 1 word for my day....stress.... i just have so many things happening...i haven't any time to finish my notes.... then my family's problem is getting worst... and some of my closest friend is hurt bcoz of these problem...indirectly...

i so hate it when i am so pressured and yet other ppl keep forcing me to do things that i don wan to... why must i always make ppl feel good while i am not... i am so sick of it..sick of making ppl feel nice but i cant feel good myself...why is that so...is that my fate...am i fated to be a counselor that cant comfort himself or something like that...i really need my friends to understand my situation...i wont tell my problems out so easily but i hope my friends will just be there for me and understand my situation.... bcoz to them...i am just a clown who like to make fun of everything... but i want to stop being a clown...not that i want to stop making ppl happy...but at least be happy with them...hopefully someone can find happiness for me to keep...haih...miss spending time with my friends...

aiyo....

finally!!!!!!!!! after days of not going online...haih...i have been so busy studying and attending to matters for the past few days...i am so happy to actually touch the comp again...haha.. these are the things that happen for these few days....i went to watch "the dark knight"...i had lunch with my friends and i had 'diarrhoea'...

the movie was fantastic... it was disturbing but still very entertaining... i love the joker... heath is so good at acting...he really is the joker in the movie...there isn't anything heath about that character and yet he pulled it off...but sadly he is no longer with us... and batman in the movie is so hot...he is really the macho kinda guy that every1 expect batman to be...in that movie i just hate 1 person only...which is 'rachel'...she is such a bitch man... if she is in front of me i will scold her until she cry man( if i can la) she shud be the 2 face in the movie...haih...anyways just go and watch it if u haven't...i promise u this movie is worth watching...

i am still suffering from diarrhoea...the reason y i put inverted comas for diarrhoea becoz i am not really sure it can be called that...i don have to go detail with that...but this incident created history inmy life...this is the first time i actually go to the school toilet and have "major business"... not really proud of it but...wat to do....so now i am recovering i hope...and i will try to blog more so that u all can keep track of my life....haha ( perasan )... anyways...thx for reading..bye..tc

aiyo...how can i study...?

this post is just about normal student crisis... just cant wait to finish my studies la.... i have a assignment due tmr...and i dunno shit about it... i have learned it b4 but i just cant recall...that is just a sign that i am so not ready for my STPM...and i only have like 3 months to prepare....HELP!!!!

sam and i planned to have study timetable so that we can be more disciplined and study regularly... we only gonna come out with the timetable tmr...hopefully the timetable works....i really don wanna waste my 2 yrs and get nothing out of it...i feel so stress lately...my head hurts like crazy and i am always tired even though i have enuf slp...that always happen to me when i am pressured...same thing happen to me when i am about to take my SPM last 2 yrs...haih...

its so funny..when ppl keep telling u to study, u always say u ok i will later...but u nvr study at all....then regrets when there isn't any time left for u to study...then u will panic and then flunk for exams...i have been through that so many times and nvr i change...haihz...so for all the juniors...learn from my stupidity.... better start studying...even s little bit...it helps.. trust me...now i better go off doing something beneficial to my STPM...so see ya..tc...

wat a bad day.....!!!

after school today, i was suppose to have lunch at bryan's house...which i did but b4 that something real shitty happen...danica didn't follow me to bryan's house...thank God for that...bcoz i met an accident... a car (saga) just knocked me down my bike as i were biking to bryan's house...usually i don use that road but dunno y today...so happen that the usual road i take is blocked and so i have to use another way to get there....i was riding slow and steady and suddenly this car just came out from 1 of the lanes and bump into me...my bike got some scratches from that incident...how sad...


when i reached bryan's house..i told all of them about the news..without wasting any time..danica told me to get the info from edric ( 1 of the passenger in the the saga ) and so i did...then we (dan, sam and i) move to danica's house and asked aunty dorothy ( dan's mum) to call and talk to that lady that drove the saga...that lady is just so reluctant to give her particulars...so stupid...then after about an hour we finally got to set a meet up with her to deal with things..5.30 in front of school gate...i went back home and changed...then sam, dan and her aunt...aunty devi...accompanied me to meet that lady...then we had to go to this mechanic in ss 15 to see how much it cost to repair the damage and aunty devi was with me all the time...dealing with that lady and her husband...so they found out its quite expensive there..so we moved to a workshop at ss 19 where we actually get to "seal the deal" and the husband agreed to pay rm 200 to repair my bike...even though its not a thorough repair but atleast he is willing to pay for the obvious damages...bcoz if he were to pay for everything it will cost around rm 400++ so he feels that its not worth the money...ah wat the hell..at least its better than nothing...


bcoz of this accident...i cant play badminton with ryan, ml, eugene and edre...haih....planned so hard then cant play..wat a stupid day la...but i am very thankful to my friends...sam and danica...for being such good friends...they are really my real friends...i love them...!!!! and i would like to thank aunty dorothy and aunty devi..they are super nice and i am glad that i am blessed with them in my presence...so basically that my day..i dunno y i am always getting involved in accidents...its not my fault..ppl just wanna bang me so much...wat the.....haih...fated la...

nostalgic weekend....why..?

so weird la this weekend...nothing much but....just weird... i am basically living in a home prison as my dad wouldn't allow me to do anything...i can't watch tv...nor can i go out...not even slp in the afternoon...its so boring and i cant do anything bout it...so frustrating...anyways thats not the weird part...

the weird thing is..this weekend i have been meeting most of my ex-schoolmates....its weird bcoz i have not seen them since spm...thats like 2 years ago...and now suddenly they just popped up in front of me...heng xiong...so thin erdy...he use to be the big guy in class....then there's jake...use to joke around with him in class...cool guy..but we didnt get the chance to talk as i am on my bike and he in his car...so we can only shout hi to each other....then there's wei kheng...she was just passing by when i am on the way back home...hehe...reminded me so much about schooling days...the fun old days...some of my old gang are having reunion this monday in mcd...so its like a whole nostalgic three days for me la...haha...besides that nothing much really happen...thanks to my dad....haih...nothing i can do la...so thats all for this post...tc...

feelings... do girls have them...? do boys..?

today some event made me think... is feelings important or izzit just something to make life a little more difficult....? yesterday we had a class party and a little quarrel occurred between esther and danica...basically esther wanna pack the food when everyone just started to eat...obviously its not appropriate to do so as the event only just started...so danica voiced out her opinion which most of us agreed to...but then there are also some that supports esther's actions..i meant if u wanna pack oso, pack la after awhile when its in the middle of the event or something la...


so today the 'battle' continues..and every1 is talking bout it in class...so i wrote something on the board which might have hurt someone's feelings...but i am just expressing wat i felt...thats wat i always do write on the board...boys in the class( including me...) we are also talking about it like we are a bunch of old women gossiping in the market... and i as usual will say my mind out loud without considering anyone's feelings...thats just me...so am i just so cold-blooded..or am i just trying to protect myself from getting hurt thats y i hurt ppl first...? frankly i don really know...i just feel that its fun to just be expressive instead of keeping things inside and hurt yourself...


back to the story...at the end of the day... esther apologize for her act yesterday...and i felt bad bcoz of the things i wrote on the board... then danica went and talk to esther just to sort things out and tell her wat she felt thats wrong with esther's action the other day... suddenly esther just broke down in tears...that really shocked me...bcoz all this while i always have the impression that esther doesn't care about wats revolving around her but herself...so in really open up my eyes..even if someone may seem like they are 'robot', no feelings...just work work and work... there are some small part of them that will feel hurt at times...


besides that...lately i really feel that school is such a hurtful place...every1 is trying to get on top by making ppl feel bad about themselves...or being close to some1 just to get something i return(suck-ups...) or even just by mere backstabbing..i don really get it y ppl wanna do that...do they get satisfaction from backstabbing...? or do they just feel that they are much more superior from others that they have to just tell ppl off in a rude way... i just don get it...especially with the young ppl in school (especially prefects..)...they just think that they are so good and almost perfect in everything...but ofcoz they think the world is just like that...unlike us...we have been working outside of school world...some of us even experienced other culture b4 so we know when to just shut up or when to talk crap ( although not always...ahahhaha) i just hope that they could just be a little more humble bcoz life's more than just school and friends from school...they might get themselves into trouble if they continue this...


lastly i would just wanna say...just be aware of your surroundings...ppl might be your friends in appearance but at heart u wouldn't know...i have experienced this and its really hurtful when u are so sincere but others are just making a fool out of u....its up to u to agree or disagree but just learn something from other ppl's experiences so that u wouldn't have to go through the suffer others had been through...thx for reading...chaoz...tc....

here's something to activate your humor... i recently went to this 'mamak' and the menus here are some of the menus served in that restaurant....this is the first time i actually came across this kind of names..so enjoy the "joke"...hahahah


its weird enough that they serve roti jagung but they still insist on these menus....roti milo ( omg so weird la...i usually drink milo not eat....), then there's roti horlicks and nescafe... shocking huh???


more weird roti...i actually tried 1 of them...i tried roti apple its not really weird but the name gave me a shocker at first..which also made me wanna try them...haha...

now the pic below is the funniest for me....breakfast menu...or shud i say " break fert" hahaha


wat is fresh dose man...? are they going to give me a fresh dose of some medicine or wat... actually i think they meant to say French Toast...haha see how they're linked...french and fresh...toast and dose...hahah...and wats with sand with sardin...wat are ppl eating nowadays..i have heard of clay eater(its weird but ppl do that)..now sand...? wat happen to normal food like rice and potatoes...wonder how it taste like...sand....

for this pic there's only 1 weird thing...roti plaster...am i going to be served a roti with alot of plaster bandages in them..? oh please no...im not ready...hahahah


then last and also the most shocking one...ayam dragon( pic below) firstly, i tot dragon doesn't exist..but even if they existed...i don think they are still alive now...unless the scientist got the DNA of some dragon and mix it with a chicken's...i don think its possible to have ayam dragon...!

so that's all from the weird mamak...i call it weird roti mamak...to save them from being bankrupt because of this post..i shall not tell which mamak it is...but if u wanna go u can always ask me to bring u there...hahah...thats all for now...hope u had a great laugh at these interesting menus....tc...

MUET results.....

yesterday we finally got our results...we were suppose to get our results slip at 10am but they only give it to us at 1.20pm....anyways i got my results via sms...so did some of my friends...so there's no suspense erdy la...i got band 5 and the rest of my potsy got band 4 and 1 of them even got a band 3...i was quite satisfied with my results actually but i cant really show that im happy bcoz my friends are not having the time of their lives ma...so i have to consider their feelings oso...anyways they got over it i think by playing sudoku... they actually solved quite a number of sudoku puzzles...
so at 1.20pm PN PHUNG gave me my results slip...in my class only i have bcoz the rest have gone back home...so i actually got to know my marks according to the "fields" that we were tested on... i was very very disappointed with my speaking results...i am not going to tell how much i got but i got very poor scorings for my speaking test...i don't think i did that bad on that day but i do admit that it wasn't the greatest speaking day in my life...but wat to do its over so we cant do anything bout it anymore...yea just wanna share my results with u all...hehehe

i need more SUDOKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for a week now i've been addicted to sudoku ( a game involving numbers if u don know) i love it mna...and not only me...now my whole potsy in class is also addicted to it...haha... we will complete average around 2 puzzles a day... who would have tot that i am such a geek...i feel like a geek..haha...but who cares...i so love sudoku...maybe its just a way that can help us forget about wat had happen last tuesday...

it has been a week now that MR. GUNA have left us... today we had like a memorial thingy for him...pn. chong read like a essay about his life as far as she remembers...his jokes, laughter, smile and even the look on his face which varies each day...but still he never fail to smile at us...today we felt so empty...usually when we walk pass the corridor, somehow we would bump in to him and have a long chat or even skip class just to talk to him...but now all that are left as memories we had...and that i will cherished for the rest of my life...mr. guna we miss u so much...and hopefully u rest in peace and watch over us and ur family...especially now...when our results are coming out tmr...i know u would be so proud of us...as u know we tried our best...WE MISS U SO MUCH...!!!!

finally got to do something fun.....

finally...after all that grief...i get to go out and watch movie.... its been a long time that i've been stuck at home... so me and you know who ( for those who don't too bad....) went to pyramid to watch movie...but b4 the movie, Y.K.W. wants to get a hair cut... so i went around browsing in pyramid...old wing...theres alot of sales but nice or not i dont really know la...so i went off walking alone, bought some buns from "bread story" and then i stop by a petshop and have a look at the hamsters by the window...they're so cute...and 1 of them keep skipping over another hamster..i got it on video with my hp...so not that clear la....

after exactly 1 hour...Y.K.W. finally is done with the hair cur...although wasnt really happy with the results..but wat to do...wats done is done....so we set off to the cinema to watch 'get smart'... b4 we get to the cinema...we were stopped by the workers there bcoz we cant bring outside food inside...remember my buns... so i have to leave them by the side of the entrance..fine la...was pissed but fine...after the movie when i go and get my buns...i was ask to ahow my ticket to prove that's my things...but there isn't anything to show that that's my stuff..so the worker asked me to leave my number..then he said "u better not lie...we have cctv here..if we found out u lied, ur gonna get it...." i was damn pissed when he said that to me...first do i look like a lier...second..who would lie for a bag of buns...so stupid right..i said to him..." who would lie for a bags of buns la..." then he replied " who knows.." i just walk off after that...i practically cursed my way out of the cinema area...so angry...

back to the movie...as u can see in the poster...anne harthaway( if thats the way to spell..) is starring in the movie also...this is the first movie i watch that stars her in a comedy...haha...so don't miss it..its the best comedy movie in 2008...until now la...my favourite part in the movie is when he dances with a fat lady in Krislac's house...its hilarious man..so go watch it...u will not regret...

farewell MR.GUNA...we will miss u so much...

i got to know the news about mr. guna's death this evening...it is so devastating for me and i am sure for most of us too...but there's nothing we can do now...i will miss him so much.. the best teacher i ever had...

he is so down to earth and open minded about everything...without him in school nowadays seem so empty and quite...now that he's gone to a better place...its going to be even more empty in school...he is such a humorous person...he can just crack up a joke anytime...he is so random that his jokes caught us by surprise...there won't be another soul that is able to replace him in our lives...

he taught us so much... not only MUET..but the meaning of life...he even encouraged us to go for our dreams no matter what it is as long as it is good...and he always remind us to eat healthy...there are a few times that we ask him to go out for lunch to mcd..then he will say that its not good to eat such things...but of coz being the ignorant us...we will just go and have mcd without him...but i am sure that after this we will try to minimize the intake of junk food ( in the memory of him )

that is one of the many things that i remember of the time we shared together..of coz there are times that we gossiped about other teacher and joke around with the current issues...now it all just stays as bitter sweet memories...which i will never forget.... we will miss u so much MR. GUNA...bcoz of him we will sure cherish our lives even more now...


life
it is so temporary
it may be gone in mere seconds
or even stay as long as a hundred years
we wouldn't know

life
it is a jourey
that fills the book of life
with memories shared
with the ones we cared and love

life
just so precious
it cost more than diamonds and pearls
but if we lose it
we will not be able to get it back


this poem that i just wrote(sry that it dont rhyme..its just a burst of feelings) is to remind every1 that life is just so short so please value every single minute of our lives and cherish the people you love and those who love you.... tc every1...

thanks to all MY FRIENDS.....

lately as some of u might know, has been a little more difficult than usual...my dad lost his job... my results are not up to par... life at school is so hard with all the backstabbing going on... so basically i am just going through a very hard time now... but thankfully i have friends that really help ease my pain... i wont be mentioning names because i am afraid i miss out some names... thank you so much friends ( u know who u are)... thanks for the food, supports morally and physically, and many more...

every1 shud really value their friendship...i am really grateful that i have found such great friends and they are really true friends..not just someone that u hang out with when ur happy...but when ur in trouble they run away...so just go to ur friends and tell them how much u care and love them...and be there for them whenever they need u... remember a friend in need is a friend indeed.. hehehe so thanks once again for all that u all have done for me...only God can repay ur goodness...I LOVE YOU ALL...

keep eating...HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

earlier today our history club had a annual lunch in school...something went terribly wrong.... the canteen owner misunderstood wat we want and she decided to prepare 2 sets of meal...1 buffet is for 24 ppl...and the other is for 40... so at first we were confused..how come there are so much food on the buffet table...then we found out that there is a misunderstanding between the canteen owner and us...what can we do...we had to eat everything since we're going to pay for it...so we call everyone we know that's in the club to come even if they haven't pay...but unfortunately they cant come...can u just imagine 18 ppl eating the meal for 64 ppl..we had a few rounds and we even packed it home...all of us...haha so funny la....i am still full from that lunch till now...


then yesterday, after we visited MR. GUNA... all 5 of us went for dinner together...at the banana leaf restaurant " Nirvana Maju"...sam is just so addicted to the place..including this time she had been there for 6 times in 1 month....aiyo... but the food there is ok so we don mind going there again....so danica, pei yin, bryan, sam and i went there and eat like nobody's business...

the front of the restaurant....

the deco.... quite unique..

this is wat i ate... yeah i ate all of it myself...haha

these are the other food we had that day....damn alot right...

danica's roti something la...forgot d....

aiyo eating oso wanna pose ah....

aiyo i bet they are very hungry...hehehe

something stuck between ur teeth ah bryan...?

last picture always got me in it..haha...

after all that eating for the past few days...i think it's better if i get some exercise man..if i continue this i may be the next heavy-weight wrestler on tv...haha...so anyone of u who need a workout partner..please please count me in...haha...thats all for now...hopefully i don get myself too addicted to fatty food....tc...

be strong Mr. Guna....

today in school we received the worst news a student can get about their teacher... we get to know that our beloved MUET teacher, Mr. Guna, just got admitted to the ICU in some hospital in Putrajaya... obviously we were all overwhelmed by the situation... he fell from the ceiling of his house while checking for any leaks from the water tank, which is located above the ceiling... then dunno wat happen and he fell all the way to the floor...and had a head concussion...now he is in a critical stage...and doctors says that his chances of surviving is only 10%...everyone that he taught in school were asked to gather in the school hall to pray for him...the hall was filled with prayers and also tears... i am writing this so that all my readers can help change that and pray for him...please...we still need a good man like him in this world...

to Mr. Guna and family....even though u all cant read this but just be strong...don give up hope and just keep striving... all of us will keep praying for u all... dear readers..please pray for our beloved teacher and u will sure be blessed in the future...